Disclaimer: Queer As Folk is owned by Cowlip, etc. No profit is made from the creation of these stories. Insult or injury is not intended.

Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Brian/Justin, duh. ;)
Spoilers: S1-S4


Author's Notes: So, I started this fic the very night that episode 402 aired. I posted a bit of it that night, then decided to write more. I've never felt like this fic entirely gelled. I opened it this morning while waiting to go to the doctor and decided that I was going to add scenes, or whatever, to make it work. But, reading it over, while I'm still pretty sure that the entire fic as a whole really isn't my best work, I also don't know exactly what it needs to get there.

I had someone do a good beta, and they suggested that the problem lay in the lack of anything really happening, or any character growth, etc. I agree. I just don't know exactly what to do with the thing, and some very large part of me has pretty much decided that this fic is just over. For one thing, the Hunter characterization is way off at this point given the way he developed through S4.

This fic was destined to just languish on my harddrive because I couldn't find my way to finish it, and as always happens with fic, the more time that passes between the inspiration and the completion, the less likely it is to ever be finished, or to finish well. So, I am choosing to post it as is--I mean, there is an ending, it just isn't the best all around story I've ever written. (Assuming my internet connection works with me for a few flipping minutes. Again, if I don't reply to the comments, emails, you may leave, it isn't that I'm ignoring you, or am ungrateful, but that until Thursday my internet connection is iffy at best.)

Suggestions for improvement are more than welcome. If someone gives me a brilliant idea to make this thing come together, then I'll happily execute it. Otherwise, this is finished, I suppose.